You would feel like you've disappointed people who depended on you.
You would think that the world is against you because life is not going well for you.
Sometimes you would even be put the entire blame on you because it is your responsibility.
Well, it's up to you if you want to focus on the negative things that's happened in your life recently.
Or you can also start to focus on the little small things you've been blessed with.
You can sit in the corner, feeling bad about yourself forever,... or you can -- dare I say it -- suck it up, stand up and be better. Even if your boss does not see you striving to be better.
I admit I've always seen myself as timid, unable to handle bigger problems, and weak. I always doubt myself, feeling unprepared for the big jungle out there.
Heck, these days, I've been scared to even check my emails already.
I admit that I'm... different. I feel like I'm an oddball out here. I behave differently, I interact differently. But I know that one day, I'll find my place.
Sometimes I have problem coping with work is that I don't have anyone to talk to. I don't like complaining about work, and if I talk about work, it's not like they'll give nice words of encouragement. No, they'll just say the usual phrase.
"Life's like that. Suck it up, woman."
"What are you, a baby? Grow up."
"So what if the world's biting you? Bite back."
Or something along those lines.
Perhaps it's still because I miss having someone to think of me, asking how am I doing, how's life. [I swear if I have to deal with another "So, are you seeing someone?" question, I'm saying "No, I'm seeing my dogs and TV shows".] I miss going back to a house where I can goof around with good mates and talk crap about uni life or gossip. I miss hearing about someone's day, what were they up to last weekend...
I really hope I can make it through The Big Weekend.
PS: Check out what I did for The Bee. So proud and happy! At least this really cheered me up last Friday, despite getting a chide.
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