Realisation

I just have to accept the fact that I can't please everyone.

And that I can't make everyone accept me for who I am.

Yesterday, it was hurtful to find out how have I been treated, and I stopped my train of thoughts and wondered if I had made a friend feel this way about me: being angry or upset with me that the person would not want to hang out with me anymore.

I'm so sorry if I had made you feel like this. It was not my intention. But if you had made me felt like an outcast... like I don't belong in the world you live in... how do you think that makes me feel? It's like being the third or fourth wheel, looking like the odd one out.

I have put up with it, but I kept being reminded about this and unfortunately, it's making me feel unhappy or uncomfortable around you.

This isn't how friendship works, isn't it? But if there's one thing I've learned, is that we should learn to forgive. Even if I'm being treated in such a way, I would not do the same to you. I will not go down that road where one would think "If so-and-so had treated me badly, why shouldn't I do the same?"

No. I won't.